Nivisnook

Well, noone wants a crisis to last this long...but when there ain't no choice...then? ...then one tends to search for  the speed breakers in the roller coaster ride that everyone wants to jump off.... So I went down as usual with dog no. 1 (yep, I have two) and after some time I realised that the "young" 72 year old uncle was not out jogging as usual (now you know why I said young) . When our whole world has been turned upside down by an invisible enemy, we tend to sleep each night wildly hoping that this whole thing is a nightmare and we feel so crestfallen to wake up and find out that things have gotten only worse, if that could really be possible. After a few weeks of enduring this new now, we slowly start searching for things and moments that make us dare to hope like Aamir in 3 Idiots that "All izz well".For me, chatting with Verghese uncle every morning standing at a safe distance :) has become a speed breaker of sorts...so when I didn't see him

Yesterday is the past, tomorrow is the future, today is a gift, thats why it is called the present.... some wise person said this... a very popular and common saying... we kept saying this often, used it in a very philosophical way on FB and the likes... but I think it has finally become real in more ways than one nowadays.... We thought we had this all covered... in American lingo "I've got this", every tiny bit of our lives were planned... career, family, savings, insurance, retirement plan, even weekends, annual vacation, name it and it was all chalked out. We never ever thought of "what if" . Slowly, but surely, the digital world we had created for ourselves ensured that the "chicken littles" amongst us disappeared... And then, as though to wipe off that self assured smirk we all had on our faces (well some of us atleast), a tiny little virus reared its royal head at the fag end of year 2019.... Covid-19, as we all (even a little kid) cal

The other day, after what seems like a life time and is more like 20 years... I landed up in Mylapore... the part of Chennai thats steeped in devotion, prayer and old culture...this area also houses some of the creme de la creme of good ole Madras. Ofcourse, 20 years is atleast 1/4th of a full life and since places these days seem to transform overnight, I was practically lost in this old- new place...After dropping my older one in her class, me n the lil one started walking up and down, searching for a tuck shop, to buy yet another packet of the orange chips (Lays). After going criss cross around 3 times over,  I got the chips and some more junk; it was on our way back to the start point that I noticed this old, almost dilapidated building standing like a sore thumb in the middle of the shiny new landscape. Reading the name "Sumanth apartments" was like turning on the tap to a flood of memories.... of days spent returning from Adarsh to Shanthis Aunty's house a

And so I made a choice.... a choice I had toyed with for the past two years.... a decision that could change my life, certainly my bank balance and hopefully make my kids super happy... its easy to guess... yes I finally quit... after being in the dilemma for 2 years or more... after going through the whole process in my mind over and over again... I finally chose my kids...At one point, I really thought I would have to keep those "chits" that I have heard of... usually folks keep chits at "The big Boss' " feet and then they wait for his august vote. The deal is sealed, when a flower falls on either chit and voila, the decision making is taken out of your hand, just so you can easily thank or blame "The big Boss" later... yep at one point my mind was so befuddled that I really felt like choosing this course of action...Stress is bad and some times its good as well.... extremely stressful times propel you into making big decisions before you can thin

Ofcourse I am not pregnant (thank God), nor am I having double vision, but when I am a whopping 91 kgs.... I am convinced there's one more version of lil ole me  hiding in there below all the grease and grime:). More than high time, I focused on "turning the heat on" and melting the fat to find the ahem beautiful person almost forgotten inside :):):) One more to add to the already groaning list, saved for when I am done with the notice period... of course this item seems like more for asap!! Wish me luck, folks, I shall keep up an update on my weight loss tales, trials and tribulations:) More on the KG overload same day next month!

I felt compelled to "dust the cobwebs" and pick up the lost threads of my random thoughts here.... so here I am... Life is strange and I am certainly not the first person to say so...just mentioning it coz i can feel its strangeness now. Though it seems quite improbable to me, recent events were so stressful that it required all my energy and (non existent) patience to sort of sail through it all... once in a while here and there, I almost felt like I was drowning.... at such times, my better half was right there beside me, with his hand out to bail me out of whatever felt like a whirlpool.... A marriage is a life long partnership.... a promise to be there through thick and thin... again this is not something new.. I am merely quoting the marriage vows...but often some "thin" parts of this life long association really test your belief and faith in each other.... there are some places where you feel you are alone.... where you even feel cheated, some parts where it